Weigh-in

I really really wanted to be 187 today. I'm not disappointed, 188 is GREAT for 3 reasons: I'm below 200, I'm below 190, AND it is a 2.5lb loss. The last time I weighed 190 I was being admitted into the hospital to deliver Graham. I KNOW, I WAS 9mo PREGNANT!

Thank you for your support and encouragement. It keeps me going knowing you all are behind, don't be shy leave more comments, I love it. I'm off to enjoy my coffee and my day. Tomorrow begins another week!

Week in Review

This week has just sucked all around.

Eating: wasn't horrible, but left ALOT to be desired. No menu always throws me off, I can not go w/o making one. I was just plain lazy about it, and that is mentally where I got thrown off.

Working Out: Trainer sessions were great, well maybe today was not so great. I worked hard, but so was not focused today; I know she could tell. I got on the treadmill afterwards and gave myself a mental whooping. RAR! The treadmill calmed me down some, but I still have a bike ride left in me for this evening.

I AM losing weight, so that is great. I'm ready for a mental and physical break tomorrow. I need to mentally and emotionally get my head right this weekend. Even though I will be out of town most of next week, my head will be back in the game...fully.

Hump Day

I was hoping for a good boost from my workout this morning, but instead I sat my happy butt on the couch during naptime, therefore not doing anything productive this afternoon. I hate that. The couch will be off limits to me the rest of the week during naptime. I can relax in the evenings. After all, isn't this one of the reasons I stay home? Enough groaning...

My workout was great, I love working with the trainer, she pushes me. That is the "plowing" that I like. I've met my weightloss goal already for the week, but will push for more. Eating today has been ok. The fridge stopped cooling for a while and pretty much ruined everything. Thankfully the freezer is fine. Now it looks barren, guess I could clean the shelves. Oh and I did not make a menu this week. Menus work soooo well for me. Keeps me in line.

Overall today I give the w/o good ratings, and the rest few stars!
There's always tomorrow.

Hebrews 12:1
Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles, and let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us.

Feeling good

I don't think I actually look like I have lost weight, but I "feel" like it. It makes me all the more excited to keep pushing on, eyes on my short term goals, and plowing plowing away. I swam today, and that always makes me feel like I am getting long and lean!

I have purposely made my meals a little smaller, making myself let it digest before I know if I am still hungry or not. It is working, and really makes me more aware of what I am putting in my mouth.

Tomorrow I meet w/ the trainer. Bring on the burn.

Queso, my beloved!

After going to eat lunch at Pappasito's yesterday, I was really wondering if I was feeling ok. It is my most favorite place to eat fajita's, queso and salsa. I barely ate any queso, had one fajita - did not even finish the tortilla, then 2 slices meat, and that is it, a few chips and salsa. It was all good, but I was not dying over any of it. Could these food changes really be happening this fast? I do not remember that from any other time I have done this. Everyone else was still eating, my mom asked me if I was done. I thought about it, and said "Yes!" Woo-hoo. It Did not take long for my stomach to get used to smaller portions.

I will always have a deep love for my queso, I just do not want to eat it so much anymore. Queso, we have many great memories, all the way back to summers in high school; but for now, they will have to be memories!!!

Wrapping up the week

After running a low grade temp on Thursday, I still managed to get to the gym to train with the trainer on Friday. Only to get in "trouble" for trying to workout while being sick. Thankfully she sent me home and banished me from working out and cardio. I think I needed the day of rest. Even more wonderful, I lost another pound. I know in the next few weeks, my eating and working out will sync up and it will really start rolling off. What sweet joy that will be. But for now, I am happy with the pounds that are already coming off.

I am so glad for a free day today, I don't really want to gorge on junk food, but I definitely will be having some queso!!!

Tanked Thursday

Today has been horrible. The boys have been at it since they woke up this morning, and I have not been feeling well. After a 2 hour nap, it dawned on me I might be running a low fever - I was. ERG! However, after dinner, the boys will be forced in the backyard while I at least walk on the treadmill. My muscles are so sore from yesterdays workout that they at least need some stretching. Yikes, that is going to hurt.
Hopefully, tomorrow will be better...I know it will to some degree, my Mom will be here! HOORAY!!!

p.s. I have not eaten even 4 meals yet today, but at least what I have had has been clean!

UPDATE: I did work it on the treadmill. 30 minutes of hills w/ a great HR. Thankfully the meds had kicked in...now my muscles might be a little more ready for the beating with the trainer tomorrow.

Brag a little

Well I have to brag on myself a little...
First, I worked w/ the trainer today. OMG it was so hard, great, but so hard I really think I almost cried at one point. Love that! My gym is 2-story, walking down the stairs afterward the workout I had to take it nice and slow so my legs wouldn't buckle. Ok, so now the bragging: The trainer weighed me in today, I was FOUR pounds lighter than last Monday at my weigh-in. Seriously, I don't even know how I contained my excitement at the gym. The trainer was so excited, and that made me even more excited! I don't really feel any different weight wise. But what a payoff that my efforts are going to start clicking even more.

Tonight I have to do cardio. If I don't write about it, someone needs to comment and hold me to the fire...
Throw me in the fire. Tonight is date night and after an evening of running around 4 kids, cooking and cleaning I'm completely pooped. I knew I should have done it earlier today. I need to work on finding my balance between working out, housework, etc. It will come - soon I hope.

wiped out ramblings

I am so glad I am getting back into the swing of working out before the dead of summer heat hits. That way maybe the transition into summer won't hurt so bad. After going to the sprayground this morning, doing housework, then going to swim, oh and make dinner, then backyard playtime...I'm POOPED! Fortunately, so were the boys, I just put them down and not a peep, my kind of day.

Swimming today was good. My first round of laps I so did not push myself hard enough for a high HR, but it was good enough. Then Alison and I decided to run laps in the pool, that spiked up the HR for sure. It was fun, we were racing, and I'm mud if I let the prego gal beat me. Mmm, maybe that was her ploy. Nah, she's too competitive! ha ha ha I definitely feel good about the workout. I'm tired, that's a good sign. So now I get to reward myself by watching American Idol!

Before I sign off: Thank you to all my sweet friends who support me. I have struggled with my weight since before Ethan and I am sick of it. This is not the person that I really am, or who my wonderful Lord created me to be. I know this is going to be an amazing journey. I know that emotionally and spiritually there will be years of hardness stripped away. AND one day you will see the parts of my heart that only few have seen...you know who you are. Oh sure, I am open and honest, but there are places even I haven't seen for a long time. Yea, I'm excited about looking HOT; but almost more so, to see God's changes in me as a woman, wife, and mother.

Psalm 139:13-14
For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother's womb.
I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; Your works are wonderful; I know that full well.

Monday Moaning...

Why is breakfast so hard for me? It frustrates me to no end. I have become so lazy in the mornings. Maybe I need to get up for a week or 2 for some early morning workouts and see if that helps. Breakfast is not that hard to make. Maybe it's because I hate the fact that I have to start doing dishes so early in the day, they NEVER go away! I'm not complaining...just moaning the fact I have realized something else about myself I need to work on. BAH!

I went to the gym and did weights, it actually helped my begging sore muscles feel really good. My plan was to leave after that and do the treadmill at home tonight. Knowing myself and that I wouldn't, I put my happy butt on the treadmill there and worked it out. Good Girl! I felt so great afterwards. Finally! I know w/i a week or 2 everything is really going to click and give me even that much more momentum and excitement AND determination!

Off to start dinner. I'm making an eat clean Pad Thai recipe. I'll let you know if it's any good or not. I hope so...

I give the Pad Thai 2.5 stars. Paul pretty much hated it. It was just not nutty enough tasting, too much molasses flavor. Little did I know, Paul is not a huge fan of Pad Thai anyway, I LOVE the stuff!

Sore, party of "one"

I met with the trainer yesterday. And even though I can hardly move, I still do not regret telling her how hard I wanted her to work me. It was hard, but more rewarding than anything.

I love how they have a little section roped off for trainers to use when doing stuff that does not require the weight equipment. We did mostly core strengthening and some weights. Whew! I totally love that she wants to get my core strong and that the rest comes with it. I don't even think I will miss doing Body for Life training. It is good that I have someone there to push me to my limits knowing what will be a great outcome for me.

Now I must go use these sore muscles to do laundry and clean up around here! Fun Fun.

Did it anyway

Yesterday found out Graham had a virus, and that my sore throat was more the likely the same thing. Needless to say, today his fever was gone, but still cranky if I walked more than 5 feet from him. So Alison got the shaft on swimming with me. HOWEVER, I managed to drag my happy butt to the garage and work that treadmill (even w/ a migraine). Also, managed to nearly kill myself a few times trying to put the fear of God in the boys about touching the treadmill while I am on it. I did get a good work out and the boys got to play outside. Win Win for us all.

I'm working on my goals and hope to get those posted soon. Isn't posting my WEIGHT enough? That took all of my courage. Lately I've changed my tune on keeping those numbers a closely guarded secret, not that I am so proud of them and am dying to tell people; but, how am I going to stay encouraged and working hard if I don't share! Funny that I still don't want Paul to know...HA HA HA HA He has no clue. Side story:
A lllooonnnngggg time ago we were in a store, I was trying on jeans and I needed a bigger size. I asked him to get one for me. He practically yells "A TWELVE?" I about killed him. He was completely clueless! Seriously, now I would love it if I could yell "A TWELVE!" Soon, soon.

Dinner Disaster

Well I had a cheeseburger for dinner, good thing the fries were disgusting. I'll just get back up and start over again in the morning. There are a million excuses I'd love to give, but really I was just too tired and worn out to put any effort into dinner. Good thing tomorrow is food shopping day. I love filling my kitchen w/ yummy foods for my family!

What is wrong with me?

Last week was a very challenging week, I did manage to get all my cardio and eating right accomplished; but there is something wrong w/ my body. I even went to the doctor. I have a weird skin sensation and have been over extraordinarily tired in my bones! The doc thinks it's my cholesterol meds so he gave me a smaller dose. Hopefully that will work. Going camping this weekend and relaxing seemed to help a little. Maybe my non-stop going has finally caught up with me. In addition to my med change, I am also going to "try" and make some life changes. Last night I went to bed at 9:15 and did not wake up until 7 this morning. Now I know I won't do that every night, but it sure felt good.

Today I start weight lifting, and am very excited about that. So til then....

So the whole time w/ the trainer was taken up with measurements, goals, etc. I did the treadmill, got a nice little sweat going. Tomorrow is swimming, then Wednesday will hit the training. I'm excited to see what the trainer has mapped for me - given my goals.

Swim Lap 2

Today was better, but I can not wait for the energy I get afterwards to kick in. Right now I am just exhausted from a day of non-stop go and activity.
However, it is a wonderful exhaustion!