Biggest Loser

Just finished watching tonight's episode. So not a fan of the blue team. Oh well. I loved watching them totally kick butt tonight. Black team is my fav, and there was not place on them that was not pouring sweat, miss that!

Since I found out I was pregnant, I have really struggled emotionally with it all. Of course, I am very excited to have another child - this is what we have wanted. It just came at a time when I was really peaking with momentum towards my goal. My belly that was getting defined instantly turned into "insulation", my workouts are not as strenous and gut-wrenching - which I love, and I have zero energy.

Aside from all the workout stuff, clothing is still an issue. I was finally getting to the point where I was excited to go and start buying pieces for my new wardrobe. Went on our shopping weekend and broke down. Since then I have tried to find a few work out pants that would work, but to no avail. I've had a real mental block with getting maternity ones. Finally tonight, I found some at JC Penney's. They are maternity, they are cute AND they are size medium. You have to know, that all my previous maternity clothes were XL's. Praise the Lord, I'm gonna look cute pregnant!!!

God's timing is more perfect and sovereign that I can ever imagine. For that, I am ever so grateful. I can not wait to find out what I am having, I can not wait to hold the baby in my arms, I can not wait to add the last addition to our family. Thank you, my Lord, for Your, even better, journey for my life.

Coke

I keep forgetting to tell you all. Saturday we went to this burger joint Hubs has been wanting to go to. I was so desperate and ill feeling by the time we got there I had him get me a coke. 2 sips later, I had him pour it out and get me lemonade. Sips is actually an exaggeration, more like drops. I will not count that towards my journey of no cokes. So to date it has been 3 1/2 months since I have had one. Not bad. I know they pretty much will be gone from my life for good. My husband is going on 2 years w/o one, so why do I need them? I don't.

Preggy Sickness

Last night Hubs and I were laying in bed. I was moaning, on the verge of tears, and feeling completely helpless. I asked Hubs if it was this bad with Son #2. He said "Yes." I was almost shocked at his answer. Surely it wasn't. I told him that God is good that way. I remember being sick with Son #1 and remember with Son #2 being nauseous almost the whole time, BUT you don't remember how it feels. Interesting.

Today after nap time I will get out and walk. I feel so utterly zapped of energy, it's sad.

BAH!

I've worked out about 3 times this week. That might even be an exaggeration, it's been a blur. There were too many days this week where I felt completely miserable. A walk would've helped, I know. Sometimes that preg belly says sleeps is more important than anything.

On the eating, I would not say I have been the ultimate clean eater, but it is definitely not junk. I'm basically trying to eat what will not make me sicker than I already am. And soon, this part will be over.

The invasion of pregnancy on my body has been hard to adjust to this time. The other 2 times we were trying to get pregnant, this one was a surprise. Oh, I am very excited to have another baby. Just not so much about the 9 months of havoc on my body.

So today, I will try and get out for my walk in the nice cold air.

Swim

Julie and I swam this afternoon. I did not really feel like I did that much; however, tonight I ordered pizza - since Hubs is at bible study - let the boys watch cartoons while we ate...I fell asleep on the couch. Son #1 woke me up saying he wanted more pizza! Guess I really did get a workout. It will take getting used to working out and remembering that my body is working double time already growing that precious baby.

This is good for me. I am very excited. Plus, I think me walking or doing some sort of cardio late in the day helps the nausea at night! YEA.

today's workout

Since I would still consider myself a beginner runner, I have put that on hold while preggers. So today I put Son#2 in stroller, Son#1 on bike and hoofed 2 miles. It was a good w/o. That hill at the end really gets my blood pumping even more!

Tomorrow, Julie and I are swimming!

Bittersweet

Have you wondered where I have been? The last 2 weeks have been quite a rollercoaster for me. I will detail this past week, the week before that was just gloomy because I was nearing my goal date Nov.15, and wondered how I was really going to make it. The details will not be in chronological order.

Friday Nov 14-Sun Nov 16: JRo and I have our shopping trip to San Marcos. That place is enormous. Two outlet malls smack next to each other. Awesome! 3 full days could have been spent there. I found 2 sweaters and a pair of boots. It was frustrating and emotional. JRo, well we flat spent every last dime she brought. Oh she got some amazing pieces, that look so beautiful on her and only accentuate her beauty. I'm so proud of you JRo. You relaxed, enough (hahaha) to find some pieces that really work for you and are not so haphazard.

Friday November 14: I go to the doctor (they always weigh you), so I do a semi-official weigh-in. Not my goal, but happy. I have come so far. You can not ever factor in the injuries and illnesses that you will have along the way. I have come a very very long way from the beginning. I have somewhat physically forgotten what being that heavy felt like...definitely not mentally - but daily working on that.

Wednesday November 12: Work out with Julie, it felt great. I was so not satisfied with what I saw in the mirror as I lifted. It is amazing how quickly you can digress when you have an injury.

Monday November 10: Wake up not feeling well and emotional. Had a parent/teacher conference w/ Son#1's preschool teacher. Make the day even more emotional. However, my sweet Hubs stepped up to the plate and made a difficult phone call for me. Spent a lot of the day reeling between happiness, sadness, and feelings of not wanting to disappoint those around me.

Sunday November 9: Wake up with unsettling feelings. Worship at church, more unsettlement. On the way home stop for a few items at the grocery store. Get home, unload head to the bathroom with one of my purchases. I do not even have to wait 3 minutes...I'm pregnant!!!!!!! I show Hubs, he gets the silly man grin of "I've done something!" and I burst into tears.

NOW, all the events of the week fall into place. Shopping was hard b/c I waited for months to do it, then really could not enjoy the fruit of that labor. I so do not want to buy new cute clothes that soon will not fit me. Sunday and Monday, were so emotionally charged for me. Feelings of excitement and sadness all at the same time. Plus, all those you have cheered me on and worked with me - how could I disappoint them? Lastly, as my Alison (SiL) put it...BITTERSWEET! Hubs and I have always wanted 3 children, I just wanted to enjoy my new body for a while. Sweet, that the Lord is blessing us this way. Bitter, my journey took a sharp turn I was not expecting.

Do not take a "downer" mood from me as you read this post. I am very happy and utterly blessed to be pregnant. Just as in me losing weight and having to deal with issues that came with that. I have spent the last week processing all the different emotions of being unexpectedly expecting.

JRo and I have spent alot of time talking of how my journey will be now. How will I take charge of it? How will I not succumb to the "I'm pregnant" mentality? How will I be able to still encourage and motivate others? Well stay tuned...this blog and journey is only the beginning. I will continue my workouts and cardio and eat as clean as I can during my pregnancy. This will be a first for me. I did not do this with the other 2.

I'm still here!

Yesterday Julie and I hit the gym working on legs. It was a great workout, so much so, I am sore today. Of course, I did not do the burpees, my shoulder is still caput.

Speaking of...today I am going to experience acupuncture for the first time. I am praying this will help the shoulder begin to heal. I now firmly believe that the nerve is involved. BAH! So here's to acupuncture...

i'll update afterwards!

2 miles

Finally, I walked 2 miles this morning. Then did 3 sets of one-legged squats, step-ups, and running man. It felt sooo good to be active. My shoulder is hurting, but no more than usual. I'm sad that I can not do serious arm training, but would much rather heal more quickly.

The past few days have been really hard. One, the muscle relaxer makes me all sorts of sleepy. Two, it's quite a downer when I have such great momentum going and splat, I completely stop. I've tried not to let it really affect me, but way back deep down it has. So I will just push forward and try to remember all the obstacles I have overcome thus far. And there have been many.

I must say, it has been nice to be here at my parents house and get to relax and relax my shoulder for a while. It is always way too hard to do that at home.

Julie, thanks for forging on w/o me while I am gone. I look forward to picking back up with you when I get back.

Detox Day 3

Not much going on the detox front. I almost feel a little more bloated than last time. ERG! Probably b/c my body is so jacked up with this shoulder thing.

Talked with my chiro today. I desperately need some pain relief. I am going to my general doc in the a.m. and hoping/praying he has something for me. I know going to him will not fix the problem, just the symptom. At this point, I do not believe the problem can even be fixed until there is major relief for the symptoms

JRo can attest, after seeing me tonight, it's pretty pathetic.

Hopefully by Wednesday a.m. I will be getting some cardio in.

Taps Please

Da da duuummm Da da duuummm Da da dum Da da dum Da da duuummmmmmmm

I was making smoothies for the boys and I this morning. It sounded awfully quiet, I stopped and stirred it and then...nothing. I looked at it, smoke coming from the base. It is officially dead!

I have now sent 2 blenders to mixing heaven!

Detox Day 2

Second day and have not had much activity so far!

On the workout front...I walked on Thursday and that was the last thing I did. As of today, the shoulder/neck pain has become quite severe. My chiro wants me to go to the acupuncturist. I might try that, but really just want a HUGE dose of muscle relaxers. If I am not putting BioFreeze on, I am on the couch w/ a heating pad. I was going to run today, but will wait until tomorrow. I will not be lifting weights tomorrow.

This is soooo beyond frustrating. I have been in the most incredible groove. I know I will get there again, hopefully sooner than later; but I do not want to injure myself further so I will take it easy. ERG ERG ERG!