Am I Getting Better?

This has been a great weekend, busy but fun and I did all my workouts.

This week on my, running chart, I move up to run 7min walk 3min. I realized when I was running on Friday, that 5-6min did not seem like enough; by 5min I was just getting in my groove, only to have to stop to walk. Anyway, tonight I started the 7/3. At the end of the first 7, I thought - I could go longer. I didn't, I stuck to the plan tonight. I am completely amazed that it feels good, I can go longer, I am not going to die, my body is stronger and better equipped to keep me going. I am in awe of how far I have come.

Yesteday, JRo, Ally and I were scrapbooking. I was working on Son #2's first bday party (last summer) I showed JRo a picture of he and I - I like this pic.

Her jaw dropped down, she shook her head and started crying. I don't know if she had forgotten how big I was, prolly not, had a flashback, or was just overwhelmed at how far I've come; but, it made me cry - I just pruned up my face and shook my head. She then goes on to say how bad she felt seeing me that way and in a way felt responsible for not speaking up more. WHAT! I told her she was not the shoving crappy food down my throat. But, she did say something to me a few months before I began my journey..."You will never change until you want it bad enough and it hurts more to be where you are than to do something about it." That really hit me. She was right. It took alot of courage for her to say that. She is a supporter and encourager, not a here's the facts gal. But JRo, you will never know how much you have influenced my life. You will never know the depths to which you mean to me. Thank you.