And so my journey begins again...15 weeks ago!

A small recap, but no "catching up." 
I started this blog way back when, look in the archives if you need a date!  It was a journal for my journey to losing 50lbs.  Well I almost achieved in, then I got the exciting news I was pregnant, then tragedy struck and we lost Selah at 18weeks.  Between now and then, it has been a journey to mentally regain my self worth and determination.  Yep, it's taken awhile.  But God has moved my life in insurmountable ways.

15weeks ago in walks, Trainer.  It took way longer than I wanted to get back in the swing of daily workouts and to actually lose weight and see change.  Around week 13 this started happening.  I'm excited!

So my journey begins again...want to tag along and see what happens?

Wow! I can't believe it's been a month since I've posted. I've had a lot going on; general busyness, getting started again, and emotional thoughts on my journey. I'm leaving for the weekend, but plan to update when I return. Lots of thoughts, but kinda floundering in getting a fierce groove.
Don't give up on me...I'll be back soon.

I RAN!

well, mostly. Today I ran with my sis-in-law, who may never run w/ me again - I act too much like my brother - her hubs. We went 2 miles and alternated running and walking. IT FELT GREAT! I actually was much better than I thought I would be; especially considering I have not run since before I was pregnant with Selah. I'm so happy happy happy!

How do I act like my little brother? I push myself hard, therefore whoever is with me has to work harder, and she said the most annoying thing...after a good run we both say "Man, I feel great - that was awesome!" or something of the sort. Yea, my job is done. ha ha ha

I think getting back to extreme cardio is going to help me with some grief. It is still lingering, and that is ok. I know in time it will get better - not healed or be gone - but better. This week has been especially rough as I look to next month - when I found out I was pregnant last year, and looking back to Selah's birth. Wow, the onslaught of tears surprised me!

We are at my parents in Houston enjoying a long weekend. You enjoy yours!

today I decided to do my cardio with Graham tagging along in the bike trailer. Two things:
1. He talks to me, so I don't get as much thinking time. That is ok.
2. It is much harder to pull him; therefore, cutting short my ride. But at least I was out there.

My physical therapist said I could do some light upper body, so I think I will go do some stuff here at the house.
Ciao!

Legs

Ssssooooo yesterday morning I texted Julie to see if she wanted to workout. I knew doing this would be the only way to get my hiney in the gym. Her thoughts were very similar. 3:30 on a friday afternoon, we are working it out. YEA! Sadly, my legs are quite sore today. This will be fun, trying to manuveur around at E's soccer practice.

Stomach Bug

After a week and 1/2 of each of us getting the stomach bug, I finally feel well enough to work out and to eat right. I'm so thankful we are well, but also thankful to not be the nursemaid - that is tiring work! The good news I lost about 9lbs, not that I reccommend that diet - it stinks.

While I was sick, it gave me a lot of time to think about some emotional garbage I have been letting weigh heavy on me. Some of that is now out of the way and can now progress even further physically. Since I have been taking it easy this week, I have really gotten back to eating clean, ah-hem, cleanER. That makes me even more excited about the physical aspect.

Have a fantastic Friday.

Physical Therapy for me

Today I had my consultation for my shoulder and elbow. Shoulder basically has tight muscles and needs to be stretched ALOT! Elbow - a stretched or inflammed tendon (sad i can't remember what he said) which is causing the throbbing, pain, and even irritating the nerve running down my ulna to my 3rd and 4th digits. Therapy will be some exercises, ultrasound, and continuing my anti-inflammatory meds. 2x a week for 4 weeks. Hopefully this will do the trick.

Until further notice, I am off upper body weights. That doesn't mean I can't bust out some major leg and butt exercises, along with some serious cardio. This is my plan.

That's my physical mess. My emotional mess is sssooo much more involved. In short, I am missing my dear daughter Selah, Ethan is struggling with frustration, I'm exhausted from getting the new school routine down, and I really am desiring God's best for my life and my family's thus I am having to go through some very tough growing pains. BAH!

And with that, the house is completely quiet. I am going to enjoy it on the couch with magazine or two.